ITS A KEN HO BLOG

looks like there has been a change of plans.

2012-01-12T00:52:00.003+08:00

Okay. so if we are going to take diving we might as well take boat license right/? so heres the details for you all .
Do note i'll be going no matter what so hope you can join me

PPCDL Course Fees (COURSE WOULD BE 2DAYS)
SAFYC Member: $235.40
SAFRA Member / Chevron Club Member / Student / NSF: $288.90
Public: $321.00

In-house Medical Examination (Optional): $15.00
Theory Examination: $20.00]
Practical Examination: $50.00
License Fee: $50.00

Course Duration
2 days (Saturday & Sunday)
9.30am to 3.30pm (Theory Lessons)
3.30pm to 7.30pm (Practical Lessons)

Practical lessons fees : SAYFC Member: $100 per hour*.
Additional 10% discount for participants who register during their PPCDL course.

Estimated 321+15+20+50+50+x(100)
= $456+x(100) SGD where x is the number of practical lessons u need.

Here's all the details i have for diving so far.
It is authorise by ITDA and NAUI (one of the best heard from my father)

According to him price is around: $500+
(net inclusive of everything from equipment rental to overseas trip.)

He was very vague about duration but its
2-3hr theory lesson
1 pool lesson
oversea graduation trip.

SUMMARY:
Cost= 456+x(100) +$500 = $956+x(100) , where x is the no. of lessons needed to pass p.test.

Course of action now: Book the 2day boating course on saturday and sunday. on?

Solitude

2011-12-31T23:37:00.004+08:00

Though the chances of anyone reading this is as low as like what 0.01%
I will be avoiding my computer in the year of 2012 for as long as possible.
Most Communication would come close to a stop so don't bother looking for me.

Guide me to walk by faith not by sight
to love the world even when the world doesn't
to choose wisdom against folly.
to become the best i can be.

before i go.

Take care IDIOT

Food for thought

2011-12-23T23:17:00.004+08:00

So did you manage to lock that feeling away or is it still growing?

When too much time becomes a problem.

2011-12-21T15:07:00.003+08:00

Here's the thing. When you have nothing to do, you get bored and when you get bored you do stupid things which will get you into trouble. Its like how birth rate is high in the less developed countries as they have nothing to think about but reproducing ...i think hahaha. whatever.
Wow what am i trying to say?
Freedom came rushing in with the end of my last chapter.
now instead of complaining i have no free time at all, i complain otherwise.
Now the better me sees the whole picture which is me rotting away infront of my xbox360 and computer and says "ken, this is no go, you got to do something useful "
The other replied. "Let me be, its so much easier to laze around and enjoy. I haven't been able to enjoy for such a long time"
this is what happens everyday it's like this eternal conflict in me everyday.
While few of my friends work and those who don't
I don't seem to fancy the lives of those who work.
omg let me be a little boy again please. why am i even 20 years old?

ok so anyway i decided to slowly stop my nonsense and take meaningful steps for my life.
and where else the start but the best place, my very own room.

I knew something had to be done when i found myself sleeping like a stick on my bed lastnight
because half of my bed was filled with random stuff .
I have brought my mess from camp to my own room. welldone.
Its going to take a couple of days but watch out people of townsvile. i'm going to finish this.

A proper closure. (in the process)

2011-12-21T14:39:00.003+08:00

And so life continues. Everything comes to an end eventually. It is only right that i give a proper closure to my recent operational ready status .It is clearly a beginning but we ought to know that something ended that very day. "1 years 10months ago they took away my pink ic , my freedom was taken away. Now my pink ic was returned and they took away the home for my brothers and i" as quoted from a friend of mine. not sure if these were the exact words but the meaning is there.

We started getting sentimental towards the day we ord. We knew that once everything has ended we would miss it and all our brothers and sister (joke intended) . Life back then was tough. We had bmt like any other soldier would. However unlike other NSF, we were commandos in the training . We had to start together and end together. So towards within everyone liesa special bond of hatred and love. We were tortured as a group for every single indivdual's mistake. That very fact made us accept every individual for himself . Which is why i loved the peple who befriended me. thus i thank these few people who have really played a significant role in this army journey.
Daniel Foo, Tan Kar Wee,Kehao, Mathew Ang and Irvin.
Because you guys made a difference.

Soldier 1.
Daniel a remarkable man. A guy with friendship problem vioelence and getting use to how stirring shit happens everywhere around him. hahah. We call him our junior every now and then because he failed his airborne selection test during bmt. As such he only entered airborne in the 202 batch while me and mathew ang entered the 200th.. Because of this fact he remained a private throughout training phase till atech started. He had a raw nerve for this so wenever we felt bored this trump card never fails to be played :)
We Shared fav sports, mine was frisbee his was football. We traded footwear and bed. My Sandals for his bed. We basically shared many good times together. In Brunei we slept together eating wang wang under the ground sheet in the rain. In Taiwan we slept together side by side in bunk where he found my treasures under my pillow. He was the first person whos hair was cut by me. We often squabble the lamest stuff but always get back together like how true love never dies.

Soldier 2
Tan Kar Wee. Cutest guy i ever met with a strong determination to prove who he can be. He loved outfield often commenting how cool it is. Sleeping beside me in battalion block we were often tortured together by raging mosquitos. He was always easy going and NEVER failed to put other people before him, always showing love to the people he cared for. What i love most about him is that he was always the one who accompanied me without me even asking and any reason whenever i'm in the store working.

Silver wings upon my chest.

2011-10-25T13:21:00.003+08:00

Count down to ORD . i think it should be less than 2 weeks by now.
Thanks for making my ns life so exciting nehaha.
loved the non stop action.
From our first outfield in BMT
to demo course
to boat course
to airbourne course
to 5 seconds stand to the door
to batatlion life.
to non stop turn outs
to brunei
to another 100outfields.
to appendicitis
to 1 month attend c
to taiwan for atec
to Redcon 1.
to all the funny things i did later
to vomit on the parade square
to thailand
to ntm
to audit check (which we pass in someone's face)

we hated it then but we'll all miss it once we ord.
too bad all good things come to and end , and so do bad things.
thanks for making my ns life so enlightening peeps.
ah whatever, signing off from hougang beepbeep

When life starts being an ass to you

2011-07-11T13:51:00.001+08:00

i have nothing to say..

Ride to Neverland?

2011-04-27T22:38:00.005+08:00

Will anyone believe me if i said i was 20 years old?

I don't even feel and act like one.
Am i the only one around afraid of growing up?

Redcon 1

2011-04-26T22:32:00.007+08:00

I could be watching gossip girl now but i suddenly felt like blogging so here i am.

I was just browsing through facebook and i realise that i really miss the world out there.

Life in camp honestly sucks especially when you have no one to share it with.

Its so hard to find people nowadays to chat and socialise when we have all parted with our ways.

Overseas, army etc.

I'm definitely guilty of abandoning my friends and thinking i could live with out any.

I really miss you guys. Anyone wants to be my friend again?

The Wall

2011-02-16T19:10:00.000+08:00

God has a bigger plan for me.
Let go.

you're oh so sweet.

2011-02-13T01:00:00.006+08:00

Happy Valentines Day Peeps.
Fast backwards 1-2 yrs ago valentines day was one of the most corniest day in JC
i remember posters up around school promoting sales.
and you will be like "hey i should get one of these"
oh lets not forget how desperate we were esp after coming from an all boys school
everyone had crushes here and there.
So those random gifts were common.
How silly those days were. .
I remembered how much courage was needed to actually do one of those.
Be it giving a rose.
or popping a question "Will you be my valentines"
then years down the road when u meet your old buddies ,
you'll laugh together with them at all the silly things you/they did.

But of course not all things goes the way you expect them to be
Rejection occurs breakup happens
whether it be then or later.
i guess it always happens.
What we always fail to understand back then was that we were too young.
It isnt easy to keep a relationship.
Everyone thought they knew what love is.
but in fact no one knew.
But lets not get into that subject or i'll never be able to finish this post.
Now where were we..
Ah yes the experience.
Best part of Valentines day would be the experience.
(for singles) it would be the 1 times of the yr you get a good reason to confess you love for someone
(for couples)it could be perhaps the best time to something wild/new and interesting together nyahaha
not saying that they cant do this if it isn't valentines day
A must do in your life if you ask me.

While my valentines day would be spent in camp alone with my gay buddies
Congratulations to my OC
and good luck to him because he is going to propose!
I totally forgot what romance is.
I mean on Suntec City big screen
Only a mad girl would reject that.
Really sweet.

Now to another point which have been stuck on my head for quite a while..
Are singaporeans "modern" youths totally hopeless?

Now playing :

Just the way you are.
Shes got style.

anyone care to join me? nyahaha

My insanity ends here.

2011-02-06T02:44:00.004+08:00

Its about time i did this.
First off i would like to thank my mum for teaching me that life has more meaning than what i have been doing for the past 1 month
although i would not like to thank my dad, but thank him for being the most irritating person i have ever known.
he has done a good job of drilling moral values and disgusting habits into me.
thank god for giving me this family.
because through them i have learnt the real meaning of love
and that true love actually does exist.

Update with my life.

March 72km and received The Red Berret
Found out my injury was more than it seems to be
Had appendicitis on Christmas.
eat,sleep,computer+shit for 1month +

I guess i have to thank myself for the one thing i did get right in life.
I cherished every moment of my life and put it into a chest.
Recipts,tokens, gifts,cards,letters. Anything that got to do with my life.
I opened up that very chest yesterday and i thought
"what happened to me?"
"what went wrong?"
I have forgotten what its like to live.

There was a time i believe serving national service was meaningful
A friend of me came up to me recently and said i have changed.
i laughed at him and said how.
"you used to love being a commando.
.you believed in what you were doing like defending your love ones"
"look at you now. so negative . i dont like what you are doing"

It is true that love exist.
After living on this earth for 19years.
At the age of 18 i thought love was a joke and behind every "love"
lies a hiden agenda.
Then one christmas i was lying on a bed with appendicitis .
and there i saw the faces of two people.
And realised they would be the only two would will always be there for me.
a simple gesture it was

but it was the world to me

I know it took me quite some time
but it would be a shame for them to see my life go to such a waste.
wouldnt i be disappointing them?
i wrote it my previous post the "thought"
of taking a great leap of faith.
now this is the confirmation
i am going to change .

Direction:
Quit gaming
Learn driving
save that super delayed 10k. -.-
find a university

i am very sorry for the disoriented blog post.
i'm finally using my brain for a change and its not use to it.
its in a mess. i need time to defragment it and warm up.

why life sucks.

2010-12-08T23:08:00.003+08:00

Its a pity i love to judge.

please forgive me because i know that it sucks to be judged.

but sometimes people cant hide their natural instinct.

well i cant. maybe for a while. but i know i cant.

This is why nothing last forever for me.

and why i know i'm not ready.

i deserve no one.

i deserve no love.

because i give none.

thanks to my indivualistic practice.

everything nowadays has been going haywired.

i live a life of a pig

and i love what i'm doing,

and that very fact is just wrong.

Life has more meaning to this.

i long for change but i know i cant maintain it.

is this who i really am?

it takes a great leap of faith to change it all.

i dont have the courage.

shame on you.

block leave

2010-12-07T20:19:00.003+08:00

I guess the worse part of cooking is probably the part where you have to clean up your own mess.

It sucks it just sucks.

i hate clearing up my own mess.

I bet i'll be ordering my own meals instead in a day or two to come .lol

Ibanking is a evil.

it makes paying online so easy..

which sucks because you spend to fast.

omgomgomgomg my savings...

My soul hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey .In my own salvation,

2010-11-21T06:33:00.004+08:00

Tough times dont last , tough men do.

No one will know how exactly tough we are in the real world.

We still bitch and moan about every small thing

but one thing has changed ,

we all now know everything is possible.

I find it hard to explain when people ask me how is commandos whenever i meet them.

Its like a social kind of thing so i'm not sure whether they really cared or is it just another topic.

Well whatever it is , i tell you now being in this unit is as screwed up as it get but of course with every downside comes an upside!

So what do you want to know?

Whether is it worth it?

Tell me how many people will be able to feel like this in the world?

to jmp of a plane for free more then 3 times

to march ridiculos long routes that last 17-20hrs

to go overseas to swim in mud

to climb mountains and mountains

to drive a boat?

i have done all these and experience it all just within months.

But there's also a price to pay.

to who much is given much is expected.

thus we train more and fight harder.

plan wisely. and do more than what other people do.

sometimes going to te extend of spoiling your body.

I guess , the best part of al this would be honor and glory.

because of all this achivements you have done

where other people wouldnt have the chance to.

you feel the pride. And its the type of pride no one will know.

its the pride within yourself that makes you appreciate yourself.

i've become stronger.

countless sleepless nights

2010-11-07T19:47:00.002+08:00

I have been feeling this strange feeling recently.

It as though my soul is trying to leave this body of mine but cant because the time is not right.

i guess this is what you get for not sleeping when you have the chance to.

Hope i survive this last leap.

Take it , its yours.

2010-11-07T18:16:00.004+08:00

After Weeks of counting down , the moment we've all been waiting for has finally arrived.
I'll be marching some incredible distance and fighting one last exercise to determine our company's efficiency.
And after that is done, there i will be on the parade square witnessing all the incredible journeys i have went through will my fellow detachment/platoon/company man.
Every test will be remembered. Every hour of trail.
Unlike BMT,this will be something way more meaningful few get to experience

Nobody will know how much we went through

2010-08-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

The past few days has been an awesome experience to me.

Its suppose to be sacastic btw if you cant tell.

I Have no idea where to start but i believe as much as i want the world to know what is happening behind close walls, They will never know and understand what we have been through.

Is it really worth it?

risking and suffering.

I use to think commando's wasn't that choing as they use to be.

but hell shit i was wrong.

i cant believe how crazy they are.

12hours of sleep.

2010-08-01T18:55:00.005+08:00

This is probably my last.

I dreamt of someone last night.

She broke up with her current bf and got togther with me

and it was good.

We had quite a great time every now and then.

Doing what couples do during their free time and all.

We were on a bridge of somewhat when i asked her how was her ex like.

Was he as fun as me?

Am i better?

Eventhough she didnt reply me that day ,

i still felt good as we were together at last.

Well, i woke up soon after.

and 12 hours had past.

Time to book in to pack my bag.

"easier to play their game" huh.

Its going to be fun.

Hello peeps

2010-07-31T17:52:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps, nice knowing you.
It's so cool to have people spamming tagboards.
Now back to reality, I'm going to pass out yet again from my vocation training on monday.
Its been really fun with all those nights out and retarded stuff we do.
I know we often bick and yack.
But deep down inside.
we all do love each other right?
Its been really fun.
Like. hello spearhead, zoey tay , red bean and mr magoo.
Can't you see our cool this course was.
Not to forget how important we are to the detachment.
I'm going to miss buttcracks & someone stroking his uhmm.
But i'm glad i'm never going to hear that dry cough every morning again.

I never knew how much honor and glory mean so much to me.
And that pride.
i'll never give it up.
12 more weeks. Its mine.

I know this is lame.

but what if i did sign on.

I'm an amazing blogger, there's no reason why i should stop blogging.

2010-07-16T19:35:00.007+08:00

Its only a few days before i enter battalion .Shivers.

This is just the begining. First off, i would like to Thank everyone that has touch my life one way or another. Whether it be an incident better off forgotten or the happiest time ever. I have definitely learn loads from it. Though my process of maturity was indeed slow, i guess going to army spearheaded the process. Or perhaps it was through the fall i was able to see better.
I've never been able to see my life this way before.

Isit me or do i smell paintballs. Oh dear. You guys up for it? no paint no gain.

Anyway after 500 days of summer , autumn came. I can't believe it , but its true. That's life and its ridiculos, it goes on. Where are youuu

Run away and hide with me.

2010-07-11T11:56:00.000+08:00

Life imprisonment.

2009-11-10T23:08:00.002+08:00

Albert Einstein once wrote " in the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity "

My eyes couldnt focus after maths today.

Oh dear.

Singapore to China, Austria to Germany

2009-11-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

Introducing to you Rock Lee

2009-11-03T11:35:00.005+08:00

This is the reason why i'm not cutting my hair.

Although i have not watched naruto for a long time,

Naruto has always been a source of inspiration for me.

Yes, don't worry, it is not the "acknowledging my existence"thing that has done so,

It is the Unexpecting situations that made me once say omg. -

So what now?

Rock Lee is an expert in Taijisu.

For those who don't watch, JFGI

There was a episode where he took off his leg weights and moved at the speed of light.

So that got me thinking if i could do the same.

like spend my time training with weights on then suddenly, take it off and freaking fly or something.

I Don't anyone want to be an freaking expert in academic work?

And i suddenly realise,

HEY I COULD DO IT WITH MY HAIR

Can you imagine how light headed and free i would feel if i cut my head one day before my exam?

i'm sure that would definity leave me with an open mind for Maths paper 1 and GP

This is a freaking bloody breakthrough in Psychology

I'm losing my drive, anyone else losing it too?

Freak Unite

2009-11-01T22:17:00.012+08:00

Topic Sentence: Monster Hunter pisses people off.

I'm here today to clarify about my addiction to Monster hunter.
I know there are a lot of people out there who care about me and hate seeing me waste precious time playing this ridiculous game just before my A levels. I think now, it is only right that i admit that i am addicted to this emotional game. How often can one place such a idiotic game before such a crucial exam.
The main reason for my addiction to Monster hunter is because of its awesome graphics and how realistic 'dragons' are pictured during gameplay.
They are called wyverns in the game anyway.
To me, this game has significantly relief all my childhood fantasies.
I mean a sword, a set of armour AND A DRAGON to slay.
Which Ken would not play this game? Its so attractive.
Kill the dragon , save the princess.
No princess though. So i'll just stick to exterminating dragons.

I know there are many that do not play this game because they found it too hard.
Fear not , i will not call anyone of you noobs or losers because i was once like you.
I started and gave up because i found the controls too hard to handle
and i didnt reach far enough to see any dragons.
But all of you deserve to know how my story began..

I was on a bus one day.
If i recall correctly, it was bus 74 on my way to school for my co curricular activity, Chinese Orchestra.
I was on the bus stoning when i heard weird dinosaur noises.
to be more specific, it was calls that a velociraptor would make.
So you can imagine, me seating on a bus, stoning, in a Jurassic park like atmosphere.
As all normall un-cool ( as sudhir would say) people would do, i turned around and started looking where this strange noise was coming from.
There it was, a psp screening dinosaur-like creatures from the boy seating north-west of me. What you all must now understand is that i'm a huge dinosaur fan.
Dragons, Dinosaurs whatever.
So what i felt then was like to me , having my inner soul begging for mercy.
Crying out as though i was meant to be in that world.
Obviously i told myself almost immediately i had to try the game again.
And this time, i am not going to give up and master the controls to reach until i am able to see my long lost dragon.

However, back to my topic sentence, i have come to realise that Monster Hunter seriously pisses people off. Examples of such people are people such as myself and my brother.
Yes , The Co-Play thing is such an ingenious invention but how can dragons have undodgeable moves.
All it takes is one hit from a monster in rage mode and it would probably be your last breath.
I know many of you would disagree, but this is seems true from my MANY countless experience with a G-rank Kushala Daora and other G-rank superiors.
There were times where me and my brother played till 5am hunting just so he could get a monoblos heart.
And there were times we kept dying got so pissed off that we nearly cried.
See how emotional this game is.
Isn't Monster hunter Unite such a wonderful game?

Google "best longsword" .
And you will see how popular this game is.
The first thing that pops out is from monster hunter.
And guess what? the 2nd 3rd, 4th too!
Can you not see how amazing this game is?
No matter how many games there are with longsword in it,
Monster hunter Pops out first on the list
This shows that it is probably the most searched on google.

Have i not justified enough that it is totally alright to be addicted to monster hunter?

This is a lot of bullshit

2009-11-01T01:04:00.005+08:00

We bloody spend 100% of our life learning something new.

Even when playing games, you have to learn how monsters attack you and thus, find an opening to Freaking whack it dead.

I have learnt through games that patience is a virtue.

You have to be patient and not try to murder the monster asap.

That would cost you more potions and even your life.

G-rank monsters are seriously a pain in the ass.

Curse Rajang , Curse those crazy one hit KO bitches.

IF i had a rathalos action figure now, i would really love to tear it apart and FREAKING SMASH IT.

Chemistry is a lot of bullshit.

I don't see how PH=Pkb when its not at its maximum buffer capacity.

Did anyone say that NO.

DID ANY BOOK TELL YOU THAT? NO

DID ANY TEACHER TEACH YOU THAT? BLOODY NO

I have to go find out for myself on some posted answer scheme online.

If i were to find it i swore would have used a buffer solution equation.

Now i have to remember that finding the final [NaOH] is also finding the [NH2OH]

I think i can safely conclude that this is so because the concentration because .. the concentration

would be the same?. like 1 :1 mol ratio. Maybe that's why we can assume it.

Okay another something i don't get.

Why do the all the papers i Print for Chem NOT HAVE ANSWERS?

Argh.

5 glasses of pepsi

2009-10-25T02:11:00.005+08:00

This sucks.
i just got up from bed.i can't sleep again.
Anyway, I just was thinking about how many days we have left when i was on my bed
and immediately pictured Fabiola's timetable in my mind
and saw two freaking columns .
We left two dam weeks.

Cool huh. it feels as though i have learnt absolutely nothing throughout my JC life.
Dam you guys.
I have been doing maths prelim papers these couple of days
And guess what, i am deproving instead of improving 66 58 45
Sucks i'm going to fail.
I have to do some damage control.
Screw you all

Save the cheer leader save the world.

All alone again.

2009-10-09T14:22:00.003+08:00

Quite pathetic.

Should i keep track of when A levels ends or when it starts?

my brother say the former would cause me to fail.

He is like some living example or something.

sigh.

I feel like pulling out my intestines to cook it.

Screw this.

i'm depress.

32 more days , and i'm all alone now.

Touched by an angel

2009-07-09T21:20:00.004+08:00

So much have been happening.

maybe life is moving too fast for me.

I must admit it has been a rather interesting one too though.

Although school remains as boring as can be..

I'll never forget my JC life.

10 years down the road, i'll look back and laugh my ass off at the things i did.

So i should bear in mind now the things that really needs to be done.

And do it such that i will never regret later in life.

Well, i know i've never regretted anything i have done in my life so far.

and it shall remain that way :)

bye world.

Existentialism

2009-06-26T21:24:00.006+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blogged
judging from the fact I almost forgot my password.
I'm feeling rather guilty and nervous now because i havent been a good A level student .
Actually, expectionally guilty.
Its the June holidays ,
and i have not done much for work.
my seniors have told me that this is the most probably the most important holiday.
Saying that your results depends on how hard you have been then.
seriously, screw this

I remember having planning out at the start of the year that i would be working my ass off then.
but look what the hell i have been doing.
I remember wanting to change my life so badly.
I remember telling myself to be consistent.
but it seems that i have forgot how life works.

All i can do now is tell myself that i'm going to work hard every single day when school reopens
just to make myself feel better.
hoping that i will actually lift up to it as well.
one thing's for sure,
I need God back in my life.
oh & Nights out at 11pm!

Now,about what i have spent half my holidays on

ENCORE

Wait, first off, i really need to thank all those that came down for the concert.

Sudhier
Jiajun
Jessica
Alson
Emily
Gordon
Yingqiang
Timothy
+barker guys

THANK YOU.

ah crap i g2g. for now.

late-night high!

2009-05-31T04:03:00.001+08:00

I'M HAPPY

Elite- 4 and it keeps getting bigger

2009-05-29T16:23:00.003+08:00

Please remind me i'm not going to do well for my Mid-Years.

I do not deserve a pass for chem and maths.

However,

Do remind me that i did study hard for physics just that i suck.

so that i would learn from my mistake and quit studying last minute.

SCREW this shit , i'm going to fail :(

Nevermind , holidays are here.

everything is left behind in school.

in the little place i call home.

slowly but surely.

2009-05-24T22:07:00.002+08:00

i'm changing slowly, changing for the worse

i was listening during school devotions when i heard this message , twice

which seem to consistently remind me thats its time i reflect about myself.

its goes like this :

watch your thoughts as it becomes words

watch your words as it becomes your action

watch your actions as it becomes a habit

watch your habit as it becomes your character

watch your character as it becomes your destiny.

it sometimes really feels as though someone is watching over me.

now you must be thinking who actually listens to devotions.

I DO!

The night i kissed a boy

2009-05-15T21:54:00.004+08:00

Last night i kissed a boy

Hours before that, i had fun and went wild.

following that were strings of different emotions.

so matured but yet immature.

so cool, but yet so crude.

We're all growing up.

2009-05-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

Time for seclusion

Bye World.

let me go

2009-05-07T20:37:00.004+08:00

I talked to the first conductor i ever knew last night.
He congratulated us and asked if we were happy.
obviously, we are not, well at least i know most of us isn't.
Even we don't say it, i think its quite obvious.
That look on our faces.
Well, i think i'm happy. Maybe the problem is no one is happy about it.
Times has change, Gold isnt what schools should be aiming for.
Its Gold With honors.

Anyway, what my conductor said last night was quite comforting.
He said its impossible to obtain Gwh with a 42 strength Co because of the rich texture a 60+ co is able to produce.
No matter how good a song or skills we have , we cant produce the same texture.
So For those out there.
Nothing could have been done about it

But then again.
CCAs should be rewarded for having a large Co,
i mean if they are willing to take the initiative to recruit more members and is successful
Don't they deserve more?

Dam it, Who cares anyway?! We Got Gold SO SMILE REJOICEAND CELEBRATE RETARDS

spare me.

2009-05-05T16:16:00.001+08:00

The last time i blogged, was like just before terms.
one minute it was before terms
and now its the day before syf.
Well i'm glad time is flying fast.
at least i do not need to torture myself with stupid ridiculous maths physics and chem anymore.
Especially that disgusting argumentative essays i have to write.
i know i have to improve but.
Its quite impossible after knowing myself better. bullshit.

anyway, updates with my life!
things to be proud of, or not so proud of.

Terms results :
Gp: U
Cse: S
Physic : A
Maths: E
Chemistry : D

Napfa:
~~A,A,A,A,A,D~~
A,A,A,A,B,C

Thats right, its a gold.

And soon it will be the results of our Syf.
Do you think its better to be pessimistic or optimistic?
Personally, i prefer being pessimistic, i mean, after being betrayed by the co in the eyes of the audience.
This stand suit me perfectly.

I remember the days just before our syf we had previously.
We would practice from morning till the late afternoon, sometimes even missing lessons.
And the best part was that we had the Hall all to ourselves.
not forgetting the COP word we scream almost constantly.
But things have change.
Although practices are rather intense, they are rather useless at times.
its just different.

Anyway, Imagine you thought you were most probably going to clinch the Bronze award but you got Gold

Wont you feel better?
but it wouldn't work now because i have destroyed the whole idea of it.
Great.

Alright time for more retarded practices . bye world.

emo

2009-03-25T22:55:00.006+08:00

Whats the use of studying when no matter how hard you study you fail?

i think it means that your dumb and you should die.

Gp sucks

physics sucked

math sucked

chem sucks

Cse ... no need to say

fail

I'm sorry

Forbbiden Love.

2009-03-08T22:12:00.001+08:00

Crash and burn at your feet.

2009-02-19T09:42:00.005+08:00

Hello , Ken's here being cool. Because he is.
Elliot's here to check Ken's english
Mong's behind watching p*rn
Sudhir's beside Ken stabbing demons
Kai ling is getting shot in the back by troll arrows
oh no, dragon hunter 2, watch it on youtube.
~~Not~~ cool.

It's a special day today.
I'm excited, are you?i wonder how it goes.

runaway train

2009-02-09T01:09:00.005+08:00

it seemed as if it was snowing, but it was just ashes falling down from the sky.
its funny when they say love is selfish.
and yet realised , in our own time, find that true love is selfless
perhaps, contradictions are there for a reason.
to show you the small little line that makes the difference.

it's quite scary to see yourself living in song.
esp in the songs that you had ironically loved before and thought it would never happen to you.
i'm oh so jaded.

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
Its just easier than dealing with the pain.

Valentines's day is coming.
have all you naughty man out there got what you were suppose to get?

oh no , i haven't gotten mine yet , give me minute.

Don't you dare judge me by what you hear.

the ghost of you and me

2009-02-04T04:29:00.002+08:00

omg

this calls for a song

2009-02-04T03:32:00.006+08:00

They screamed
let me hear you acj what you do you say
you say let me hear you acj what do you say..

I was thinking of just poning all my lessons and crashing orientation .
Like today or something.
but nobody wants to crash me with me .
i kind of miss orientation

isn't this all so self sacrificial?
define the meaning of again.
it doesn't matter anyway.
haha.

I finally done my research for state own enterprise in china.
Three cheers for sweet revenge!

a part of me

2009-02-02T02:30:00.001+08:00

it was quite obvious he asked for faith
but i just couldnt do it , or actually maybe thought it cant be he actually talking about.
i looked again and i realised.
maybe its really true
but then again, even if he was really refering to me.
am i able to do it?

i think thats called faith.
what are you running away from mr ho

always be

2009-02-01T23:17:00.004+08:00

oh lord give me your wisdom.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11 "

doesn't this seem oh so famililar?

2009-01-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

For the pass two days i have been seeing the moon smile at me.

each time i walk to school in the morning , scary but true.

i did not know if it was an illusion or not.

a smiling cresent-like moon with a mouth and an eye.

how real can that can get?

maybe someone is building a great wall of china on it.

Now heres something , i cant believe it.

i left my file in school today.

now, am i suppose to study & do hw for anything?

and how, am i suppose to get it back.zz

alright , i'm exhausted & pissed.

its 1.50am

and

i havent bathe.

Lets all Score for tomorrows test!

For sometime ,

2009-01-17T00:36:00.006+08:00

The hardest thing now is actually maintaining this life with consistency .

Especially when it comes to a person who totally hates routines.

short attention span and can't sit still. .

i wonder how would he survive.

it felt like a strong pull back to reality,

as if something had been planned for him.

just when he thought it was over.

Another chance was given to him,

Another battle had to be won.

To him,

it felt as if God had given him an angel.

this is just the beginning.

First week of school has passed and i've no idea what can i say about it.

Other then being proud to say that.. i.. that..i.. am going to fail gp and cse.

Again.

Anyway thats all for now.i'm tired. nights people of townsvile.

just so you know

2009-01-07T23:58:00.008+08:00

Obviously ,

something is wrong when even your brother thinks that you are not a christian

saying that, you , only worship yourself.

we all try our best to get what we really want.

to look good in the eyes of men

because thats the only thing we think could help us get what we want.

only to forget what really matters.

pretending that all this deeds have no meaning behind them,

you sold yourself away.

is there anything that can be done, without a hidden agenda but just love.

But is doing a deed with love hoping you will get it back likewise called a hidden agenda?

now , where has the definition of true love gone to.

you try your best to figure out what happening

but you do not really know yourself.

and hope someone will give you the way,

when that doesnt happen .

you go on a frenzy.

and start destroying what everything you have built up within you.

Breaking every single promises to yourself.

you've another side to yourself that you don't show.

is that called your ~~evil~~ true self?

why don't people see it as how strong your values and principals are to keep it from pouring out.

What i'm trying to say is. This world is fair.

we can see reality coming back for revenge.

you cried for help, but you forgot who to turn to.

and i complain nobody knows me, but truth is,

i do not know myself.

such a magnificent piece of art i am.

2008-12-31T21:10:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt this strange pull ?

2008-12-30T13:09:00.005+08:00

thanks to her, i have been questioning myself recently.
something i have ought to be doing all this while.
since the begining when i started drifting away.
i once thought to myself secretly, " maybe i dont need him."
but immediately rid of it because i knew i would be damn if i did not.
"God fearing man." if there was something to remember out of all my years in Acs ,
that would be it .
now its really bothering me.
prompting me to actually find out the truth.

as i wonder to myself.
am i really going the right way.
because this is what i believe is right.
i want to tell you , "just have faith"

J2 supplementary exams

2008-12-27T08:29:00.005+08:00

i think i'm the best suitable candidate for this exam.
"12 of jan" the computer said.
bloody horrifying
it high time we all start studying.

I'm missing so many things
maybw it isn't so bad afterall.
tell yourself, its a blessing in disguise.
A fatal attraction , i can't let this happen again.

dam it it feel great to be home: merry christmas

2008-12-26T01:13:00.006+08:00

Oh yeah, i'll blog about the china trip once my father retruns me my cam.
which means never.
since he intends to upload the pictures together with the other cams first.
(cause he will never do that) hahah

I loved the:
spitting
coughing
smoking
drinking
eating
scamming

its probably one of the worst chirstmas and holiday in my life. so far.

sometime later.

famous last words

2008-12-13T23:32:00.005+08:00

okay,
i knew my com was this dirty but its really getting worse then expected.
when i come back, theres going to be a nest
which is good cos its going to keep me awayy.
i'm already starting to get addicted

my coat is ready.
don't worry kids, i'll buy back goodies for you!
but
if i don't return, remember i love you.

just in case i die HAHA

a piece of me- "eat, sleep and multi tasking between two screens ."

2008-12-12T20:20:00.008+08:00

" talk to you online ."

thats what so many people keep saying to me but they don't understand the life i live in.

honestly i never felt so wasteful in my entire life.

all i do is rot away. like literally.

I'm finally back on the com, but not for long cos i obviously found some excuse just to come online.

i realised how fast the world has passed by without me.

but who cares about that anyway?

here's my cunning plan
i'm going to turn over a new leaf because i really need it.
eventhough sometimes i think its impossible to redeem myself now.

I guess its never too late to start isnt it.?

For now, i'll just going over to china and freeze my ass off.
no more thinking ,
no more reflecting.
so when i come back, i'm dead.

its all about taking action now.

the thing about trying so hard to be special, you really actually become..special..

sometimes i think it runs in the genes.

whatever the case. i'm happy about it.

i promise it wont happen again.
ever.

i need some music in my life.

i need help.

time passes by , direction unknown

2008-11-16T20:57:00.006+08:00

just the other day one of my best friend, teddy, told me,
"eh i pierced my ear"
okay seriously ,what an IDIOT. hahah
I know i shouldn't nag about how utterly disappointed i was.
But , as a friend, i know i should be there for him.lololol
Anyway his mother was already doing what i wanted to do. :)

So i met up with aloy and his cousins to play some badminton the next morning
before meeting Gordon and checking out on teddy in the afternoon
Unfortunately , i wasnt able to reason why people ,especially my friends, shouldn't pierce their dam ears at that point in time. hahah.

anywayy,

we did some talking.

and a little stalking.

Not forgeting adding. @@

and thanking God that nothing else happened. =)

seems that its true.
Its really harder to find true friends in Jc.

Knowing when the tides change kills this Cycle.
Please don't.
trust me, it will happen again.

I'll be right back before you know it noobs .

i'll show you.

2008-11-11T01:10:00.009+08:00

Last summer,

the fourth and final track to be lifted from 'Busted' was 'Sleeping With The Lights On'.

The end of the 'Busted' story takes us back to the beginning of the Busted story:

it's the first song James and Mattie ever wrote together, round at James' house in Southend.

"Girl's left you," James summarises. "Classic excuse for writing a song."

Mattie adds that sleeping with the lights on is "useful if you come in pissed. Put the lights on, keep one hand touching the floor, and it stops the room spinning."

its nice to look back once in a while.

this is what i was talking about.

2008-11-10T21:21:00.004+08:00

in times like this my friends,

treat it as a blessing in disguise.

so what if its expulsion or retaining?

so what if it stays with you through out your life.?

it was our curse.
its time we change it.

we were like warriors on the battlefield.

2008-11-08T22:11:00.005+08:00

a little taste of how it feels like to be free.

still i can't believe my tuition keep clashing with most of my sport dates.

trust me its pissing me off.

but i know in the midst of everything, i know i need it.

chiral or achiral,

the year where everything will pass by fast is approaching.

i'll cover my ground.

my weakness lies to the left recoil.

but obviously the best of opponents creates the weakness when there is none.

i'll disappear just like you want me too.

bye.

my immortal.

the curse.

2008-11-07T09:40:00.006+08:00

a hell lot have happening these few days.
i'm just glad, the A level's Project Work is finally over.
we actually finally manage to get together to pull this through.

'so why cardbox. '
or
'hog'

Eat, Shit.

i've always tried my best to know everything
to know all the different worlds revolving around me.
sometimes , it is a curse just to think so much.

for one'll always delude himself with the negative.

and so i'll will take a step back,

just for you.

where the all the great thinkers in the world gather

2008-10-31T10:11:00.008+08:00

its a study of their mind through body language,

understanding their expression first ,what is offensive and what is not not

you observe the way they walk , talk , eat ,sleep ,react.

esp how they observe other ppl.

you put yourself in their shoes and walk the similar path.

catching their strength and weaknesses unless they actually ..

slide pass you through mere innocence..

thats when life gets interesting.

we're like two different main characters from two different best selling movies.

when you love someone, it doesn't matter whether the love comes back.

you just give yours willingly. sacrificially

thats when you know its true.

this is .

know the keywords and its your game.

2008-10-29T14:21:00.004+08:00

i foresaw this.

because after all my life goes in a mini cycle which i'm by now awefully familiar with.

did it really affect someone?

is it actually possible to doubt in someone so much

esp if someone consider that person his/her friend.

unless of course..that person is not.

the ability to forgive is an art of love.

The thing about 'Love at first sight'

Girl : but you don't even know me.

Boy: Well, we have the rest of our lives to do that.

the ability to sacrifice is an art of loveless.

those wings, i want them

2008-10-28T00:12:00.005+08:00

they said i'm living in self denial.

2008-10-26T12:50:00.006+08:00

Conflicts are arising and things are going out of place everywhere i go.
i feel so vulnerable.
where have my values & conscience gone too.

one thing is for sure.
You're missing.
Dam it just come back ..

and i will blog about the white house another day.
i just realised, every post that says i will continue it some other time, i never do.

in times like this , its best to just smile (:

Degeneration

2008-10-17T22:06:00.003+08:00

we received our results today.

now, i'm just going to wait for the final results.

well , i'm amazed that thefisherman manage to beat me at physics today,.

i knew i would screw it up quite badly only making for a boarder line pass.

but honestly, it was totally nice. i'm glad you did.

challenge me next year.

anyway

Let alone promos it self,

Physics: E

Maths : D

Chem: E

dont bother about the rest, i have 3h2 pass and no h1 pass.

guy , lets just cross our fingers and wait for morderation for now.

i'm really tired.

this body of mine is degenerating.

it was always about you wasnt it.

i'll pay for all the bad things i've done.

2008-10-16T23:53:00.003+08:00

I really really do not want to come to school tml..
really do not
really.
i finally realised why ppl ponned school.

it does not matter.

2008-10-16T19:08:00.008+08:00

Today was not a really nice day.

well one of the reason is because i found out screwed up a classmate of mine is.

other then the plague.

i'm really piss at her.

In fact i hate her.

But honestly, i really wonder what was she thinking.

wow 'everything is alright untill'...

Hey, i am able to accept the fact that i'm wrong but just prove it.

.830pm.

i'm really pissed of now, and i have no idea why.

i think i'm stressed.

-----------------------------------------------------

Lets knock this down

We're going to receive our results back tml and i'm scared.

but i really.

who is not?

i'm quite sure probably everyone out there are even more afraid then me.

anyway imagine a scene where the person who hates you gives out your all exams paper.

imagine the classmates you love retaining. or ..getting kicked out of school.

imagine how useless and hopeless you will feel not being able to do anything for that person..

i don't want to failed.
i don't want to advance

i dont want to feel useless & hopeless.
i want to promote.

i want all of us to.

anyway
I've decided I'm not giving this mind away
It is mine.
my uniqueness.
you will never know me.

no one will.

Ac games ,our power surge

2008-10-12T19:18:00.011+08:00

Okay, i think i have enough energy now to blog.
i never felt this tired for a very long time,
this could even be my first time .

I finally know why this drink is called Red Bull.
my eyes & skin were red , throat was sore & i looked like a bull ):
to add to that ,bruises.

damage control.
i'm so tired

So the status for Ac games for my class were:
Captains ball: Quarter finals
Soccer: Semi Finals
Frisbee: Champions :D
we were knock out in the first round for both Floorball & Contract bridge . =[

still i'm so dam proud of my class x2 ,
i mean for those who came down.
eventhough we didnt get 5 golds lololol
we bloody Rock
like we made it to the semi for soccer eventhough i suck at it.

k just check out the facebook photos for a summaryz
and i'm seriously not photogenic.
i'm really tired..

i've no idea why was there co yesterday,
and why is there school tml.

i really love my class

Ac Games

2008-10-09T21:33:00.003+08:00

and i'm so proud of my class.
1sb6

Frankly speaking you're adorable.

2008-10-08T20:23:00.005+08:00

Today is such a tiring day, and yes
obviously everyone would agree. hahah
Glad it is cleared up.

True-Ryan cabrera.

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weakit's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hideits time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waitedthis is trueI know when I go
I'll be on my way to youthe way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hideits time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

-----------------------
Ac games tml.
come on 1sb6 ,
Six Golds.
i know we can do it.!
and i also i know i've got to sleep early tonight. omg.

My loveless ambition.

2008-10-07T19:41:00.015+08:00

I knew this would happen.
Promos finally ended today , 07/10 /08
i really thought i would go ' Yes, screw you asswipes i'm bloody free'.
I thought i would be free from all the problems of the world,
free to do what i really wanted to do.
what i really wanted.

so what do i do now when nthing can be done.

Well so far maybe
stuffing myself in cinema for now is a nono.
or maybe its just going near ps.

Yesterday, House Bunny

Today: Eagle Eye.

i actually slept inside a cinema, i knew exams were getting to me.

and those two retards have to keep nudging me.

Idiots just when my exams are over your nice poly holiday ends.
Do you know how happy i am?

Movies do not show the true fact about life
They only show a part of it.
Nevertheless ,Today & Class outing was okay

although i found out playing lan with my classmates isnt really that fun.

for several reason.

-Feeling sad after exam.-

The 'post exam syndrome.'
i think this is what you really call 'down 'syndrome.

Whereby you feel down like after exams.

i'm not angry with you ,

its just the normal old heartgriping feeling of sadness.

for no apparent reason.

But i know.

Anyway I was thinking 4b14b2 outing on sat, with some sport games.

Oh where's your badminton outing lukas? where is it?

you said there would be one.

Think about this.
i was thinking ..yet again..
If Child-like behaviors were described as childish,
And People Always say children are innocent
Doesnt it mean that Childish is innocent?

.: am i wrong to conclude that "Child-like/immature behavior = innocent." ? √

omg , i just read something. oh and btw its 3am in the morning .
and i quote
" I don't know whether you guys out there will find it mushy and disgusting (lol ken) but only when you're truly in love can you feel such strong and passionate emotions. To say love is disgusting (lol ken) or fleeting is such a gross sweeping statement, but I know you guys will just see it on the surface and think it's all superficial because you guys don't know what is going on inside (: "

(lol ken)x2 , Caught That.

Yes i do find you two mushy okay.
but omg this is not why i said it is disgusting,
I think you two are really sweet and nice to each other,
in fact i'm rather glad to know how things are going with you two now.
That both of you are happy.
As in please, i do feel happy too when he is happy ;)
after all, he is Elliot quah fu-sen x.x.x.x.x.x..x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.
but..isnt it better if you two dont mushymallow around in front of me..
it makes be feel uncomfortable.
And truthfully, it reminds myself of me feeling stupid.
i would never wanna go anywhere near there.
get it..?
----4am----

self-esteem-less
"this is why it is so hate to love." -hitch

Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

Me and my Ordeal.

2008-09-26T23:43:00.007+08:00

The Invisible wall*

It was flooding.
It was windy,
It was raining.

I think this morning's weather was the best ever this year.
although my company and i were wet top to btm,
*Including our underwear
& despite the Freak accident with the paper bag.
-with my psp & M.D's stuff falling on the wet surface.
I Loved it.

How often can you get wet before school
and for the next few hours freeze while doing an examination
with your fingernails turning almost blue.
I say it a one time experience.

CHEM & GP
Woahhh.It was tiring alright.
My nightmare is FINALLY OVER.
All i wished now is that When Cps marks my paper, he would go like
'WtF how come ken knows all this stuff even though i hate him.'
den i can go point the middle finger at him and lmao in his face.
But thats obvious just a dream.
Still, i think i can pass..but sometimes i'm still quite sure i'm going to fail again.
I mean afterall my Mcq is a total load of Bullshit.
anyway this feeling feels awfully familiar. .

Its definitions. Alright i Got it okay?.
thanks to the two people who corrected me.
i think its a ken trademark/signature takedown move.ok.
Cant break thru- Busted.

The defination of true love.

2008-09-23T23:55:00.006+08:00

I think today was rather stupid,
In fact, i practically just went to school today for Chem lect .
This is what i call a disaster.

Late
Consultation with M.D
Going down for Dc and up for ponning
Bridging, Eating & ~~Shopping~~

When Promos starts in just 2 days time.

All this eating all day long now makes me guility.
You need to know this, but i have no idea how my body can take it.
i ate from 330pm-500 spamming ridiculously beef and chicken.
& later at 700pm-++ Dinner at Jumbo.

down to $0 in my pocket .

Fat-ted have grown quite a fair bit. tall+buff+fat but as childish as usual.
JemC maybe cooler, i mean maybe its just his hair.
Victor..what has nZ done to you.
Whatever it is, you guys made my day.**

until i had to arrange a consultation appointment with M.D ..
-First came an sms.
Second the invitation
Third the hint
Forth my death.
..An Epic showdown between Guy vs Gay.
i'm obviously the guy btw.
all the way down to school tml again.

pride
greed
lust
Envy
gluttony
wrath
sloth
Question myself more.
one thing's for sure.
i admit, i'm scared..

Sleeping with the lights on.

2008-09-18T22:27:00.011+08:00

I think everyone ought to know this song.

its the title kids, if you have no idea what i'm saying. ↑

nice song not forgotten.
since..sec 2?

today was a total disaster.

i knew i would wake up in that state.

but what to do?

now i feel like shit, skipping a day of school.

it feels like the world have left you

and that , so sounds like last night's post.

so you sailed away, into a grey sky morning,

and now i'm here to stay, love can be so boring.

-vertical horizon

thin line between love and hate.

2008-09-18T22:27:00.003+08:00

ken, now that you've seen that you are going to be left all alone,

are now willing to finish this battle?

you have exactly 7 more days and 50 mins.

take back your lost 'drive' & sprint through.

better then nothing.

2008-09-17T19:01:00.003+08:00

wow what just happen?
what was i suppose to do?
sigh tuition just killed my thursday.

The lovers , the dreamers & me.

2008-09-16T23:20:00.006+08:00

all want for my birthday is you .

omg i'm super tired, i 'll repost this thinngg.
12am soon. :O remember i posted this on 16/9/08
so the next time i'll pretend i was posting like now.
if you get what i mean hahhah.

Project work, The Final Proposal huh

2008-09-14T02:11:00.001+08:00

Limo Song.

my little prayers,

2008-09-12T22:48:00.004+08:00

It was big and bulky,
i shall leave it one corner for now and see what i should do to it later.
i need a sense of urgency now before its too late.
i need it so badly before i'm left behind all alone.
an aching body, a drained brain.

for all this tiredness , that never seem to go away.

give me my remaining strength
something seems not right.

one week before,one week after and10 days later

2008-09-09T20:41:00.011+08:00

first day of school just ended yesterday and I'm already wishing school will end forever.

change you imagine what the after promos life feel like?
i can picture it in my head.
the rotting sensation.
I'm going to grow roots on my chair and make sure everyone else entangles up with me.
or maybe just go mad, doing every single thing i wanted to do without fear
still I so bet its going to be the same as next year.
like before the exam ended everyone would be like 'lets do this and lets do that & stuff '
and when it finally ends, no one will know what to begin with.
leading to the home sick syndrome.
-so what will it be this time round?
well i know exactly to do.

It's the month of September.
the best time of the year.
I'm so gulity of not getting someone something on time.
Oh you know what , take that kinderbeuno and Dairy Chocolties as 'my apology present'
Hahaha i'll will get you something soon, no sweat about it.
ya..heh as soon as i get my schedule figured out ;)
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIOT QUAH FU SEN

one week before , one week after and 10 days later

The world of Neopia

2008-09-07T22:43:00.004+08:00

omg school tml.
you cant run away this time.
face it , ken .
reality has caught up onto you.

The little sad thing about life.

100th Post

2008-09-04T17:42:00.005+08:00

You know , just the other day my entire post got deleted.

i was so pissed cause i seriously wanted it up.

sad, but anyway life goes on.

i can't believe promos is just in a few days time.

and i'm getting addicted to so many things

this is going to be a shocker.

neopets.

i realised that in one day , i can earn 10k neopoints +

i remember last time when i was like younger , 10k was like my life savings.? omg.

so in 40 days time, 400k will be mine lololol

someone save me.

somethings in life cannot be force,

especially when its something to do do with humans.

i'm going to abandon my com now to seriously do some studying in my living room,

while the 'Wheel of Monotony' spins and the 'GG' Buffers on my com.

Letsgo

the many memories .

2008-08-27T22:28:00.004+08:00

'stay close , dont go ' this time.

little more luck than a little bit

2008-08-26T22:06:00.007+08:00

i cant believe i didnt get that maths question right.

i saw so it coming , but not in that form.

how i wish i could play back time now.

how i wish i could play it back anytime i want.

then again , life would seem so meaningless if i could really do that.

passing seems so far, yet again

no really , what the hell is a twinlams ?

now its trilams and quadlams . funnyyy ah Hahhah.

AC GAMES AC GAMES AC GAMES

girlfriend in 7 days.

Teachers' Day in 6 days

what more can i ask.

A queen once said ,

'theres nothing bad being single.'

where do i go from here?

a thin line

2008-08-25T04:18:00.003+08:00

The difference between the smart and the wise.

sometimes i wish wishes do come true..

2008-08-24T22:40:00.006+08:00

ken, you first need to answer the question ..

'why did you choose to come into a JC ?'

did you remember you were looking at the big picture back then.

you were taking the chance that this's it, to lead you on your next life.

you were willing to risk it all with all your weaknesses.

look where you are now.

you've disappointed everybody without knowing it.

including youself.

get up.

going to co isnt fun when you know the teacher i/c hates you.

well you can say my parents screwed it up.

but in the end , it will still be my fault.

afterall i agreed onto it.

Dear mdm, if you only know me.

if anybody does in the first place.

pressure keeps me going.

i havent done any homework yet. The result of dotaing till mid night+

i totally forgot maclaurin series isnt tutorial 12.

its graphing deveratives. Please revise that.

P.S you were the best i ever had. - Vertical horizon

what am i doing?

2008-08-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

..?
i smell a maths test near,
and a geog test for someone too.
this weekend is going to be busy one.

EOM
Gp articles
CSE case study
Practice maths
Go through physic Superposition
Chinese zuo wen

lol,speaking of zuo wen.
What a cunning chinese teacher i have. do zuo wen at dc, do zuo wen at dc

and guess what , she forgot about it and didnt give the question to the dm. and the stoning comes.

keep questioning myself.

2008-08-21T22:56:00.002+08:00

I just love thursdays

No CSE

Just nice breaks

Ends early

send my love to the dance floor.

2008-08-20T21:09:00.009+08:00

Monday:
I am honestly sorry it was like a battle out there.
No more comments , or more like i feel i have no say.
I would have punch you if i hadn't learnt my lesson back in primary school.
if you wanna scold , scold me, don't scold my parents or my family.

Tuesday & Wednesday:
send my love to the dance floor.
hurting myself for no reason.
humans would naturally find a way to escape from it.
making silent sacrifices would be one of them.
screw them
anyway how does dealing with it sound like?
i totally agree with seet.
not _ material.

-fail gp mock exam.

it's a confirm, i don't feel like arguing anymore
what a freak accident.
it's always happening these few days.

just

living in my life of my own.

2008-08-13T21:08:00.004+08:00

i've been so wasting my past few days.
so what happened to you ken?
werent you so confident when you decided to embark on this remarkable 'journey'?
always constantly thinking and only to finally realise you shouldn't proceed.
well one thing's for sure. Promos is near.

and
lets see , it falls so nicely on someones birthday.haha.

anyway
i think what fabiola said today makes total sense.
what have been going through my head was just said out so easily in a few sentences.

Can i actually go to school for it's proper purpose?

This teacher reminds me of my primary school teacher.no sweat.
i've two good reasons why he suck.

2008-08-04T19:48:00.009+08:00

it is , not -- yet. hahah :d

so this is how class bonding it like,
to have the entire class to sleep at the same time during devotion seems fine.
i use to remember the times back in barker
when the teachers,principle and most ex-acs barker boys
would share that when they finally graduate to an non-acs school,
they realise that they actually miss devotions.
eventhough they use to doze off in them too.
' hey i do doze off too ! '
but most people wouldn't understand,
since they didn't had privilege of listening to devotions over again and again since primary one.
The blue blood syndrome is taking over,
to be in acs for over 12 years.
i love it.
People will never know how precious things are until it is taken away.

how strange and mysterious things can get,

we watched a Chinese show for clb recently along the same line as that.

it was how a boy magically grew up too fast and realise again how precious things are.

but this time, it is he that gets taken away/ dies.

it was a partly love show too,and a rather complicated one .

but i still understandd unlike some ppl.

probably because i enjoy watching them

sometimes i think I'm strange or is it 'unique'!

anyone out there who get kicks of of love shows?

so whats the big deal ken?

chem test was like shit.

I was so sure it was a 'd' but every one had 'b' & 'c'

i can't be so suay to calculate it wrongly right..?

or shit did i make a careless mistake?

and its suppose to be +0.8x (let x be initial atm).

and thatts if i even read the question correctly.

passing seems so far now.

i can't , i can't , i can't

just hold on a while.

promos is near.

i am where all the lost souls unite.

i cant falter now.

i cant give up now.

2008-08-03T19:52:00.004+08:00

i'm getting a girlfriend in 30 days
and it's the only reason why i'm pulling out four teeths for.
romantic huh.?
the pain i would feel when shes get attached to me.
rearranging and tightening the past.
an almost perfect set of teeth i would be rewarded.
bracers seems to do the perfect job.
anyone get this joke? hahah

Chemisty test is tommorow

And i hoped i had study enough.

i finally gotten an 'A' for my physics test! hahah

although i was upset as i knew i could do so much better.

still, time to get over it ,maybe this can be my next 'A'

aim high ken.

friday i pulled out two teeth.

woke up the next day with blood stains all over my arms and sleeves.

i realise that each tooth meant something to me.

So let me describe the process.

injection was like accidently biting a fish bone .

& extraction was well, rather retarded.

The doctor was like a madman forcing my dam tooth out .

slightly twisting and turning my tooth to weaken its roots.

i would have uploaded the picture of the teeth is i wouldnt so lazy hahah.

the roots were this long [=======]==]

This was followed by a midnight movie with my family , ' The Mummy 3' or something

It made things sucky when my gums started bleeding more when the anesthetic (spelling thanks to elliot) finally totally wore off.

so i got home and immediately fell asleep, probably due to the fact that i lost hell lot of blood ,to escape from the world of massive headache and pain.

so who sabo-ed me during co?

On another account. I love PE.Go watch the dance our 'Tripod group' created

DAM FUNNY. Its like on my facebook profile cos i just realise the link to the video doesnt really work.

SO look for it there.http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=625707340

seriously watch it.

espically the last part. rofl rofl rofl. backrows backrows backrows.

2008-07-29T21:34:00.005+08:00

The world is so small. today i saw a girl from my church i never talked to today.
Seated behind elliot.
don't think she remembered me although she shook my hand before in the 'adult service'
but there always exceptions.

saw my brother's friend at Kap, wtih someone .*
and on the way home.
an unexpected barker friend. .
in shaltech?

So i'm feeling like shit. cos i can't finish my cse hw on time
and feel fat. for eating macs + lazing around

maybe i should have just stayed for SSP. :d

reformated my thinking.

reformating my memory

dreams do come true.

2008-07-25T22:36:00.003+08:00

im quite certain now that the rain does not make me happy,
it's the wind that comes with it.
sure of it. SURE
i think elliot's sick. HAHAHAHA
ZBJ ZBJ ZBJ ZBJ ZBJ ZBJ ZBJ ZBJ
i want my 'A' :(
two thumbs up from conductor. things just keep getting better.
dont wanna screw up . dont want.

2008-07-22T21:58:00.004+08:00

it's only just a matter of time before i crash and burn.
and fade away .

you,
don't be mad please..

monday i had a talk with my co teacher in charge.
and i made one of my most interesting promises ever.
interesting as firstly it was to a teacher ,
and secondly.. it was omg. challenging
A or B for both maths and physics.
she later talked why i was not able to get a post.
ken , ken , ken.

'od' i'm a entertainer. i think that speaks well of myself.
come to think about it , i live of people's happiness.
do you not get it?
-i meant it in good way
eg. if your happy , i am
but thats only if its me that cause it.
pluss.
I agree with elliot , My Mbti suits me well to.
anyone wanna bother reading it up?
well no one cares

life is seriously a circle. or more less goes in one .
haber cycle, water cycle or was it called precipitation cycle, nutrition cycle.
im sure there's a karma cycle now.

the rain makes me happy.

TO BE CONTINUED.

2008-07-19T21:33:00.005+08:00

today was handover day.
not bad. although my prediction wasnt right..
but honestly i was surprise when i heard irvin took the president post. woot.
still not bad. ah.
good job. work on it and don't lose it. prove your worth it.

Mike: ' she has gotten you a leash already.'
i still think you really deserve the concert master post. still , don't emo

i'm kinda in a good mood today. =)

although i didnt get a post.
had running nose and still am
DEAD tired
.

i like my seniors. and not only the ones in my section.!

i'm going to make someone get gold. or at least be there to 'try' to help.
stupid jumper.
anyway
you will know
and so i shall so cont this blog. when i get the pics.

Is it a warning? Is it an evil sign?
Is it a people who have lost their mind?
Is it the Darkness? Is it a man resigned?
Is it a best friend leaving you behind?
Is it ever gonna stop?
Will they ever let you go?
You're in a rush, they don't care enough 'cause their lives are very slow.
Time is ticking on. You don't get a second shot,
And when you sell your soul for a leading role, will The Lost Souls be forgot?

And if I can't hear the music and the audience is gone,
I'll dance here on my own.And I hope the Lonely Hearts' Club Band will play out one last song,
Before the sun goes down.

And is it envy? Should it really make you sick?
Is now the time that you realise you'd better get out quick?
'Cause time is ticking on too long to fake your smile,
But then you sold your soul for a leading role,
so wear it for a while.
------bridge.-----
So run, Yoshimi, run.
'Cause Billy's got himself a gun,
And you're right to be afraid: they'll send you to your grave'
Cause you're strange and new.

So run, Yoshimi, run. 'Cause Billy's got himself a gun,
And you're right to be afraid: they'll send you to your grave'
Cause you're strange and new.
And if I can't hear the music and the audience is gone, I'll dance.
------just that-----

you've heard it.
i ought to afterall

2008-07-18T18:16:00.005+08:00

It's amusing to see people you know trying to kill you.,
esp those who thought know you.
tank it.

2008-07-17T23:43:00.003+08:00

im shit ass tired. again.
i wanna pon school tml .1@#

err chill?
i was just being a retarded bitch couldnt you tell?
nvm im on WTF mode right now! =d

i knew it.
All these while , from the start.
i shld have just stfu all the way since den.

SUPERPOSITIONS

NICK says:
just remember the good old days in barker
NICK says:
and being shamus
NICK says:
no stress
NICK says:
maybe that's why sec 4 so fun..
NICK says:
so retarded no one cares.
NICK says:
all laugh together

let it flow, let the pieces fall.

2008-07-16T21:56:00.003+08:00

I know this is quite random
but
i was thinking about it today.
i never said the 'f' word back in barker.
okok not 'never' , but i mean i never liked it.
so why am i like this ?
NOW THERES SOMETHING TO CONSIDER . Yeah =O

oh, yes.
the retardedness is spreading.
i survived school today.

Check yes Juliet - We are kings.

'Check yes Juliet
Are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won't go until you come outside.'

'Check yes Juliet
Kill the limbo
I'll keep tossing rocks at your window
There's no turning back for us tonight. '

and the dots keep coming.
what am i doing?

oh and btw.
'IT AN ACco PRODUCTION.'
Good job guys.

omg jade you always talked about bad karma.
i feel it coming back to me now.
like the circle . the circle , THE CIRCLE you know.
anyway
n1 with 'EMOHO'

2008-07-14T22:52:00.003+08:00

DO YOU KNOW.
i seriously had alot of headaches today.
That each time you do, that i like** you more?
i admit i can't stop thinking and its going to lead to my fall.

**someone once said
'love' is a strong word.

i guess it wont be more. but i just don't want it to end. zzx
someone save me. omg.

the fact that i have stay back tomorrow makes me sad.
ken's sad.